The heat’s coming off the fires we built

sigh sigh sigh

here's to the fall.

i know that i am just a grain of sand / meeting water at the land

it took us that very lonely random moment to come to terms with the truth.

and in that moment, time stood still, like it was often meant to.

would you please meet me by the water, baby?

When she sings, she sings of a longing that's soul-deep. this song though, is all about loneliness, self-reached conclusions. of the wonders of letting go and crashing down.
i read somewhere that when she sang this live, she said it was about being thirds in a relationship, about him being with someone and she being with someone else.
it ended, like always.

but my god, what voice, if i could sing, id just want to sing like her - with sadness that comes from deep within the soul and stirs longings of unrequited love. she hits the highs and then goes in the lows ever so subtly. she's just oh-so-brilliant.

meet me by the water - Rachael Yamagata

Would you please meet me by the water, baby?
We'll have a really good time
Would you please meet me by the water, baby?
'Cause I can't get you off of my mind

I've been thinking everyday about you
Don't fit anywhere into my life, but that's okay
'Cause I think I might be right for you
And because of that, I'm not scared at all
And everyone says I'm crazy
And everyone says I'm a fool
Would you meet me by the water tonight?
'Cause I'm ready to break all the rules

Please don't leave me standing with my heart in my hand
I can't last here
I'm breaking down, and no one understands why I got here
But I knew from the very first moment that I met you
You'd be the one

Would you meet me by the water tonight?
Would you please fall asleep holding my hand?
'Cause I've got everything in store for you, baby
If you'll be my man

it must get lonely there sometimes

so. apparently its going to end.
why?
because more than a decade of friendship, because more than a decade of being absolute best friends of each other, because being confidants of each other, because being birthdaysharers and almost-sisters isn't enough.
its going to end.
and all because being engaged to someone and talking to someone else, meeting them in private, nine hour phone calls to not your fiance but someone else doesn't sit right with the two of us.
it IS going to end.
all because of a man.

for ever. maybe. and forever is such a long time.

random 2.0, for this month atleast.

the big bang theory is one funny show. i've been laughing ever since i saw the pilot episode and im downloading it like mad. whats more hilarious is i can actually make most of the references. LOL.

the other day, i cleaned up the closets, atleast the ones where i have stowed the registers and books and i found my grade 9th notes. and 10th. and the subsequent grades ive studied after it. needless to say i got a huge shock at the geekiness of mine.
i once, in grade 10th, sat down to solve the entire math book. i was under the (correct) impression that if i solved the entire book, i would not need to be worried about the math board exam, which i was considerably. so i put a cup of tea and milk to boil, on a low heat and then went in my room, because tea as such was necessary. anyway, i surfaced at 6 am, when the guard came to knock on our door. i opened my room and i was suddenly taken over by how dark everything was. the bell kept ringing, so i went to the door. the guard was worried there was a short circuit inside our apt. then i remembered i had put on the makings of tea. well suffice it to say, the kettle had to be thrown, it was just about malleable by the time i got to it, and the milk was just a lot of charred black thigum. i solved my math book that night. and i was solving it oblivious of the fact. loll. im just wierded out remembering all of this. i really was a classic case of being super nerdy. i guess i still am, because of obscure book references and stuff.

today, this olllddd uncle came, he does the natal chart things that are actually very very accurate. apparently something called 'qamar' is not in the right house. and my stars are telling me to not attempt anything. i just about quoted Shakespeare to him about the fault lying in us and not the stars. lol, i dont think he'd have appreciated it.

driving everyday for the past 4 days. according to nawab saab, nana's old driver, i drive very well for a girl. sexist, but true. lol. my motto: if you dont want to get hit, stay away from me.

taklow is very very very (x 388488488484980) interesting. i will now keep away from him. if i can.

S, is making me want to punch her square in her pretty face.

damien rice, i still want to have your babies, but im sure its going to be like this conversation between the two from the big bang theory:
"Leonard: Our babies will be smart AND beautiful.
Sheldon: Not to mention imaginary."